So, my last blog was a rant. I was dumping, venting, letting out steam. Time to move on from that.
First note: My wife is my biggest support. She is amazing. She pushes me on the workouts, but that’s because she is pushing herself. Not a bad thing, what is bad is that I don’t say no when I need to. But, she is also my biggest support. I don’t know what I would do without her.
I tend to focus on the negative, and think that I’m not good enough. That’s going to change. I will no longer listen to the people who push negative thoughts on me (i.e. my boss,) and I will no longer allow myself to think negative thoughts about myself. I am tired of allowing myself to be a victim also.
So, to purge the negativity from my life I’m going to find another job. Have some opportunities out there and I’m pursuing them. Now, the question is, do I confront my boss about his behavior? I don’t want to. I just want to turn my back and never talk to him again. What will it accomplish by confronting him? Well, getting me fired is one of them. Will he change? I doubt it. I’ve confronted him in the past about things and it hasn’t changed who he is. He is a fearful person who only cares about his image and protecting himself. He doesn’t want people to know that he’s a phony. I don’t know if I will talk to him before I leave the company.
My focus now is to cut out my podcast that talk politics and history and replace them with more self improvement ones. My focus is also going to be on bettering my job skills to be more employable. My focus will be on better managing my temper also.
I have triggers for my temper. When I’m tired is the big one. When things are off mentally for me is another. When my boss berates me and tries to make me feel stupid and insignificant is another. I will strive to recognize my triggers and change my thinking before I lose my temper.
My focus will also be on helping my family be better people. That is one of the best gifts I could give to this world.
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